Dance with My Father

*sigh* I couldn't hold my tears when listening to the "Dance with My Father" song sang by Alif AF9.. It's because of the lyric itself.. I miss Baba so much :(

Just now I saw my sister's status on YM bout goin' to Cameron Highland on Hari Raya this year.

Me: CH?

Me: sure or not

Me: jauh tuuu

My sis: citer nya gini...

My sis: slalu kita raya umah...

My sis: last year pun sodih

My sis: la ni this year..kita gi raya CH

My sis: sehari sblm raya..gi kubur

My sis: pehtu rehat sejam..direct gi CH

We lost Baba n Caca during Ramadhan last year..Caca is our beloved aunt. She took care of us since we were babies..She's just like our mother..nothin' more..nothin' less..

Now it's only 6 of us, my mom and my sisters..No longer man's voice in the house and we miss it damn much..hmmmm

Aku terima suratan takdir yg ditentukan tapi agak sukar utk aku buang kesedihan ni...bile teringat jekkk nanges..what to do..

Ha..tu jekla yg aku rs nak tules skang...Daaaaaa

Dance With My Father Lyrics

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me
And then
Spin me around 'till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure
I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk
Another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love love love
To dance with my father again

When I and my mother
Would disagree
To get my way I would run
From her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
yeah yeah
Then finally make me do
Just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he
Would be gone from me

If I could steal
One final glance
One final step
One final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
Cause I'd love love love to
Dance with my father again

Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how mama would cry for him
I'd pray for her even more than me
I'd pray for her even more than me

I know I'm praying for much to much
But could you send her
The only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But Dear Lord
She's dying to dance with my father again

Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream

You're Not Mad, You're Creative

”Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will spend its whole life thinking it is stupid.” Albert Einstein.

Ever been told you’re a perfectionist, too sensitive or that you dream or think too much?

To have a high degree of creative intelligence is a gift — but because our society, schools and workplaces privilege more conventional and conformist intelligences, it is not always experienced that way. If you, or your nearest and dearest, do not understand what it means to becreatively intelligent, in everyday terms, a great deal of suffering can ensue.

“In a society that doesn’t appreciate them, creative abilities are often labeled and experienced as liabilities,” says Mary Taylor, LCSW, of the Creative Intelligence Centre. “Highly creative people often face a lifetime of hardship and psychological pain because they do not see themselves or their abilities clearly. The abilities of highly creative people are frequently hidden under…emotional, occupational andrelationship difficulties.”

While the [creative] person is all too aware of their problems, they are often unaware of their abilities. This, allied with the fact that they live in a society that prefers linear, rational thinking and behaviour, makes them try to fit into situations that don’t suit them — and thenblame themselves when that doesn’t work out. Hence: “I’m too sensitive”; “I’m too much of a perfectionist”; “I think too much”. - more details at PickTheBrain

Sooooo....Are You Highly Creative?
Use the questionnaire below to examine more deeply how you have experienced this ability in your life — particularly when the ability has been labeled a liability. What was going on in those times? Did you blame yourself? If you look back through the lens of seeing yourself as a highly creative person, with an unrecognized gift, how does that change your perception of the event?
For best results, take a notebook and pen and F-R-E-E-Write your answers to those questions.

Do you feel different from those around you or that you are on a different “path” than most?


Have you been told you “think too much” or are “too much of a perfectionist”?


Do/did your schoolteachers berate you for daydreaming or staring out the window?


Were you told you were too ”giddy” or “disruptive” at school?


Do you experience a level of imaginative activity that few around you seem to understand?


Do you believe you have “too many” interests?


Have you been told you are “overly emotional”?


Do you go from project to project?


Do you carry a lot of unfinished projects in your mind?


Do you sometimes feel overwhelmed by the numerous ideas and projects you generate?


Are you more affected than others seem to be by environmental stimuli, e.g the weather, bright lights, loud music, other people’s moods?


Have you been told you are “too sensitive”?


Do you feel dissatisfied and unfulfilled in many of your relationships?


Do people frequently ask you for advice — while you feel there is no one who understands you?


Do you believe you are not achieving what you could be in your work, despite a high degree of competence, ability and experience (and perhaps achievement too)?

If you answered “Yes” to more than 3 of these questions, you are indeed highly creative.

Source: www.pickthebrain.com

P/s: I've answered "Yes" to more than 3 questions :)

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I hope things get better so I could live a happy life

No Sweat

Tibe-tibe teringat lagu Allahyarham P. Ramlee.. "Bau Asham.. Ketiak Sapa Busuk?" ..Perghh..Bab-bab bau ni penting beb...Buatnye sedang anda berjalan-jalan berdekatan dengan jejaka yg menarik..Feeweet!..tapi.. malangnye anda berbau seperti cipan disebabkan peluh yg sangat dashat! hahaha..potong betul..

Ape-ape pun..berpeluh ni penting gak...sebab ia adalah satu mekanisma badan utk mengnyahkan bahan kumuh iaitu toksin...Kandungan toksin tu bergantung kepada ape jenis makanan yg kite makan..Fyi, daging menghasilkan lebih banyak toksin..hmmm..tapii...apsal peluh kite berbau?? haaa..sebabbb, bile kite berpeluh, bakteria mulai berkumpul pada bahagian tubuh yg lembab dan hangat..Pastu membiak..kemudian matii lalu meninggalkan bau busuk..eiyyyyeeeekkk :P

Cara terbaik utk kite hindari bau badan ni ialahh bile mandii..sental lebey2 sikit kat bahagian yg kerap berbau tuu...pas siap2 mandii..jgn lupeee pakai deodorant :P penting tu beb...ha??? deodorant pun tak tahu ape! yg macam ni lahhh weiii

haa..pastu kalau rajen..bohla bedak sket..perfume sket kee..perfume pun kene pilih-pilih gak..kalau tak kena gaya..lg bertambah karat bau korang..wakakak..so kalau korang buat langkah2 seperti yg diceritakan tuuu..insyaAllah pasni korang ley ckp dgn bangganye "Sweat?? No Sweat ;)" atau kalau ditranslatekan menjadi lebey kurang camnilah "Peluh? Takde Masalah ;) " ..So amcam? ade bran?

Eh..tak pasti peluh anda busuk ke tak? Hands Up!! Sudah angkat? haaa..skarang...Sila bau ketiak anda! Busuk atau tidak aku takmau tau...sendiri mau ingatlaaa....Larikkk :P

P/s: Yay! lebey 200 perkataan..ahhahaha

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My favourite surfing spot? anywhere also can..hahaha.. tp kalau kat rumah ley duduk ala2 freestyle...nak meniarap ke...nak terlentang kee..sume boley..lalalalala  :P

Aku memang addicted siut ngan internet ni..sejak umur aku 15 tahun..sampailah skang..almost 28..cer kire tgk bape tahun dah aku terjebak?  :P
Started with MIRC, ICQ, MSN, Yahoo Messenger, Friendster, Myspace, Facebook..dan skang, tak laen tak bukan Twitter.. Sume aku join..macam2 jenis org aku dah jumpe..tp dalam internet jekla..hahahaha..nak jumpe kat luar malula plak kan..ekekek..

So kalau dulu masa zaman skola selalu online kat umahla..bile weekend kadang2 gigih pegi cybercafe..saje syok2..gedix betul ..ahaha..bile masuk UNITEN, rajen jugak sufing kat lab..tp jap jek..once internet connection available kat apartment kat UNITEN tu..terus subscribe :P.

Bile dah start keje, kat opis pun ley jadik port tapi tak best sangat sbb line kureng clear ..hahaha..so kesimpulannye home sweet home jugakla port terbaekkk, no doubt :P ..Lepas balik dr ofis pun tetap nak bukak computer untuk berinternet..sampai adik aku perli "aii..bukak opis lagik?"., "aii..selagi tak tutup mata..keje keje keje"..hahaha..can't help it lah...Dulu pernah terfikir yg aku akan boring dgn internet ni tp rupe2nye ramalan ku tak benar belaka..maka dgn itu.."Long Live Internet!"

:)

Tadaaa!

P1 w1max! Terbaekkk! :D

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Surat Chenta?

Actually dalam proses nak tutup friendster yang mmg dah bersawang tu... So gonna transfer some memory to this blog :) This is one of them . Budak ni siap scan nak tunjuk surat yg aku bagi 10 tahun yang lepas.. masa ni aku 18 tahun dowh.. zaman IRC lagi tuuu... :P but actually writing letters is not my forte.. tulisan dah la buruk nak mampus..tak caye tgk kat sampul surat tuu..tp takesahla..janji org fhm :P

My letter

Siap ade strepsils..hahaha

Babbling...

*yawn*

err..not a good start I guess..a bit sleepy..feel like babbling...boley? hahaha

mmm..me haven't watch "Alice in Wonderland" yet..hope next week jadi lah..gonna watch it with my sister, ecah & vee...Another movie would be "Remember Me"..tataula best ke tak..malas nak tanye orang..main reason nak tgk pun sebab Robert Pattinson *drooling* :P~

hmmm..Tomorrow am goin' to Midvalley to buy a wedding gift for my colleague. Takde idea siut..ape aku nak beli ni? nak beli hadiah exotic takut plak kalo derang bukak di khalayak ramai..nanti ape kate jiran..ahahahha..eh! ape yg aku mengarut ni Syaitonnn...

Citer sketlah pasal colleague aku ni....kenal da nak dkt 3 thn kot..rapat jugakla kat opis sbb kebetulan outstation same tmpt..dr ampang ke sg buloh ke sg petani smpila ke alor star.. but now dah tak same company tp masih keep in touch sebab aku mmg selalu g ampang..ok sambung cite..hmm..actually byk bende gak aku belaja dari mamat ni dan org sekitar dia...especially info pasal lelaki-lelaki kat muke bumi ni..baik positif mahupun negatif..hmm..tapikan..nmpk mcm negatif lebey banyak dari positif jek..ahahaha...oh tidak..aku tidak benci lelaki..ha..satu lg kan..tahap confident mamat ni mmg tinggi..kire pow pow powerrrr lah....sampai kadang2 aku yg mmg dikenali sebagai kurang yakin diri ni bley confident tibe2 ..sbb dia selalu ckp "ko bolehhhh nana....ko buat jer"....aku pun ape lagii...redah jek la..ahahaha..

sebenarnye ade lagi yg aku nak cite tp takut jadik kontroversi plak...lalalalala..*smbl pandang kiri kanan*..hahaha...ape-ape pun aku ucapkan Selamat Pengantin Baru buat dia..Semoga Bahagia Hingga ke Anak Cucu :)

oh..tibe-tibe teringat Mr. K..ape khabar agaknye dia...lame tak 'jumpe'..adakah rasa itu telah hilang..? hmm..betullah org kata..Time will heal..So no more 'Apple'..No more 'Kyle'..Terima kasih kerana memberi aku peluang untuk tiba-tiba rasa nak nyanyi "Sedang Ingin Bercinta" tatkala mengenali kalian berdua..hahaha..tibe2 rase ayat aku skema nak mampus..

by the way, guwe gunting rambut lagik...kalini last kot..pasni simpan panjang balik..saje potong kasik buang itu "kenangankuuuuu..kepadaaamuuuuu..diwaktu engkauuu disampingggkuuu" *smbl tgk lirik*..hahahaha

lebey kurang camnilah hasilnye...Tadaaa...tp aku panjang cikittt..

ye ye...mmgla ziana zain wat chantek..tapiiii...ade aku kesah org nak ckp ape?? :P gamba seniri takde..malass...semata2 nak letak kat blog? huhuhu..lenkali

Sudehh!!! :)

Bila Berkata Tentang Cinta

L.O.V.E

Love ...
Would make you blind
But it matters when love blinds me from seing Allah’s light

Love...
Would make you forget
I don’t care too much if I couldn’t remember
But it matters when love makes me forget Allah

Love ...
Makes you a fool
I don’t care so much in being a fool
But it matters if I am a fool in telling the difference between right and wrong

Love makes you happy
But why should I be happy
When I should be grieving for disobeying Allah’s order

Love...
needs a lot of sacrifice
I am willing to sacrifice
But why should I sacrifice, if it is not for Allah?

Love...
Why should I love
If it is not for Allah

Taken from iLuvislam.com

P/s: Dedicated to someone whom I care..

Ikt......

Baru tinggal notebook sekejap...dah ade yg sebok nak gune...percubaan utk meng-Google sesuatu..

musykil musykil...

Sila klik gambar diatas utk imej yg lebey bsr.. :P

Ikt? apa itu ikt?? Konspirasi apakah ini? 

Nahh..ini kerja mereka berdua...

Simba & Oyen

Tak tahulah siapa yg type, siapa yg enter...haish!

50 Universal Truths About Men

1. Why should I remind you that "I love you?" I already told you once.

2. I'll do anything for sex; even commit to you for life.

3. I hate arguing with you. I'd much rather find a compromise.

4. I love long hair. Sorry, but I do.

5. When you speak softly, I can't help but listen.

6. I need to be told "no" sometimes. Not a lot, but every now and again reminds me that you are expensive.

7. Please don't ask me how you look unless you're willing to trust my answer.

8. My eyes notice other women a lot more when you are upset with me.

9. When you're happy with me I can't help but want to please you.

10. If I don't feel I can make you happy, it makes me feel less than a man.

11. I expect you to be ready when I pick you up.

12. Cigarettes make any woman look cheap and easy.

13. I'm scared if I let a woman inside my heart, she'll take advantage of me.

14. If you can't stand up to me when I'm a brat, you're too weak for me to open up to when I'm upset.

15. Sitting quietly next to me after you've made me a meal is your get-out-of-the-doghouse-free ticket. You'll be surprised how quickly I can forgive.

16. You did something hurtful. If I never bring it up, I'm considering leaving you.

17. I don't read minds. Remember, I'm not a girl.

18. You may know fashion, but I wish you'd dress to please me, not other women.

19. If I'm losing my hair, it's not funny. Would you like me to joke about your weight?

20. When I talk to you about golf and you act bored, it would be nice for you to remember all the times I listened to you talk about what is important to you.

21. The woman I love is easy to please. She appreciates the effort I put into making her happy, even if I get the details wrong.

22. You look hot in a dress.

23. I hate being told what to do when I don't ask for help. It makes me feel you're my mother.

24. If you sleep over, I might eventually marry you, but I'm less motivated.

25. During sex my ears are as sensitive to your words as your skin is to my touch.

26. I need some type of signal or cue to walk across the room and approach you. What if you're married!?

27. It makes me feel like you trust me when you ask for my advice.

28. It feels competitive when you insist on being in charge.

29. Being respected is more important to me that being loved.

30. I want every guy to envy me when we arrive as a couple. Please don't let yourself go.

31. When I'm upset I am very tone sensitive. How you say it is more important that what you say..

32. I hate it when you minimize/ignore my compliments. It makes me what to stop giving them.

33. I'm more insecure than you think. Why do you think I need your respect so much?

34. I don't always know how I feel. That's why I don't tell you.

35. I don't need you to do things for me. What I crave is being able to please you.

36. If I do one thing and say something contradictory - Go with my actions, that will always tell you what's in my heart.

37. I find myself wanting to please you when you simply smile at me without asking for something. (Like a favor).

38. I really don't want to hear about any of your ex-boyfriends, regardless of the point.

39. If I don't share what I'm thinking it's because I don't think you will listen without interrupting.

40. I don't like to argue and I don't like to guess what's wrong. Just tell me so I can fix it.

41. I love it when you put your hair in a pony tail. Yes, it's a Freudian thing.

42. Don't ask me, "Are you going to wear that?" when I'm already dressed.

43. A gentleman should always be respected by his lady in public, even if she is disagreeing with him.

44. If you don't believe you're pretty, you won't believe me when I tell you, no matter how many times I say it.

45. It isn't how much you weigh; it's that your body is proportionate which is so attractive.

46. Sometimes I have weird and strange thoughts. I don't take them seriously and I don't want to share them with you (or anyone).

47. Sometimes you really don't want to know what I'm thinking. See above.

48. If you cheat on me, it is nearly impossible for me to get over it.

49. I don't remember everything about our relationship and that doesn't mean I don't love you.

50. I need some time to myself to calm down when I'm upset so that I don't say something I will regret.

By Bob Grant

Ada Apa Dengan Tanda

So I went to watch Tanda last Saturday..Aku pernah menonton teater tapi selalunye kat Istana Budaya..Ade sekali tu free jek dekat Muzium mane tah..boley? hahaha.. Tapi yg free tuh la betul-betul memberi kesan kat aku..menanges tak hengat nye..tajuk ape pun dah lupe..but I still remember the actors; Raja Azri & Haeriyanto :) Yang kat Istana Budaya tu tengok 'Naga Chini'(Ako & Jehan) dan "Natrah"(Remy Ishak & Maya Karin)..

Aku sebenarnye tak reti nak menilai sesuatu tu dengan detail yg ala-ala ade review tu..aku hanya bley cakap "Best Giler", "Best", "Bolehlaaa", "Not Bad", "OK Gak"...hahahaha...so for me, Teater Tanda tu jatuh dalam kategori "Best Giler"...Honestly, aku tak faham 100%..Maybe dalam 80% camtu jek...Al-maklumla, jiwa tak berape nak seni...hahaha...Siap pergi 2 kali tu..yg last shownye ari Ahad pkl 3 ptg...Anyway, ade 4 sebab aku pergi buat kali ke-2; 1) sebab best 2)kot-kot ley faham mende yg tak faham 3)dah janji ngan seseorang..kenela tunaikan janji..tapi takpe..berbaloi...oh dan no 4) sebab ZA..<--ni aku kene mention sebelum org laen mention-kan..keh keh keh...

Part yg mula-mula tu, yg after sorang-sorang naek atas stage..pastu ade Abg, Adik, Kakak, Mak, Ayah..perghh..betul2 wat aku nak nanges..tapi nak control macho punye pasal...ku tahan jua.. :P dialog dia lebey kurang camni..kalau salah..sile ignore..hahaha "Walau susah macammanapun, jangan tinggalkan keluarga kita. Kalau terhimpit macammanapun, jangan tinggalkan keluarga kita" :(

Then other part yg aku rase menarik adalah mengenai pencemaran ala-ala Farmville pastu Tanggang ngan Mak dia...Pastu yg ramai-ramai dengar sorang bercakap..ape tuh org ckp, "Pre-cautions" ek..tp sume cam gelak2..tak amek serius..ha..seperti gambar di bawah ni..Pic ni diambil dari Zahiril Adzim..bukan guwe punye..adeh..harap-harap dia takisah..

Sorang bercakap, yg laen dengar

Yang slow-mo ni giler smart..

Scene yang kontroversi(yg sebelum masing-masing rebah)

Eh! tibe2 jek kan..hahaha

The End :P

P/s: Cam panjang lak entry ni..malas nak edit..one shot jek aku type ni :P

Tiba-tiba teringat yg scene jatuh dari pentas tu rupe-rupenye mmg sengaje dibuat..ingatkan jatuh betull....yela..pastu derang yg laen gelak-gelak..syian dia..ekekeke...pastu scene Lalat tu mmg tapaham...pasal ape ek...sape-sape ley bagitau? :P